Saturday, August 25, 2012

Raya 2012


This is just a really quick blogpost.

Raya aku tahun ni okay, tapi tahun2 sebelum ni lagi best lah. Too many changes.
Bali kampung pun macam rushing je. Bila sampai pun semua persediaan dah siap.

Balik Johor Bharu gi tengok wayang dengan sepupu. Macam biasa.

Sepupu pun ramai yang balik rumah mertua lah, kerja lah.

Harini aku lepak dengan geng.

See, update pun macam tak semangat, kan?

Just kidding. Selamat Hari Raya, Maaf Zahir Batin!


edit 18/11/2012

here are some pics.

Friday, August 10, 2012

Herpes Zoster.

I stood at the veranda,facing to the sea where you disappeared to, and closed my eyes
I felt a light brush upon my cheek, full of love. I dare not open my eyes, because i knew i would see nothing. That was the closest i could get to you. They may think I'm losing my mind, but it's okay, as long as I'm not losing you. Though you are long lost, you're still with me. Maybe I'll join you in the sea. Just like the way it took you, it'll do to me. Together we'll dissolve to be history. Is that a death wish? I planned my life with you. It's a decision to sacrifice either one. You only come to me in the form of wind. No body, just soul. But your touch doesn't feel less than what it was before. And i still remember your face, your voice. Darling, i remember everything about you, and i will never forget. Every night, you'll find me on the veranda, inhaling the salty air, facing the wide sea, waiting for you to come to me.

 That was from last night. I don't know. My mind was envisioning a woman, standing on a verandah facing the sea, overlooking the shore, shining due to the reflection of the light from the full moon. Her loved one got lost at sea, at every night she'll stand there, waiting to be reunited.


Enough of that. 
Assalamualaikum w.b.t :)
I am at home, which was something I didn't expect actually. I wasn't allowed to go home this weekend because I have an innovation workshop tomorrow, but I got a doctor's excuse. I was looking forward for the workshop :(

The left side of my neck burns really bad right now. I went to the doctor on Wednesday and got diagnosed with Herpes Zoster. Went home that evening. Missed school yesterday, which just happens to be the day of my Biology and Chemistry paper. -___- I don't know if I have to take the exam when I get back. I'm just worried it'll affect my result-based position in the form. Meh.

So basically Herpes Zoster a.k.a the Shingles is a painful, blistering skin rash due to the varicella-zoster virus, the virus that causes chickenpox. (

In a nutshell, it's attacking my nerves and it hurts really really bad. I was prescribed with 3 pills, vitamin, an anti-virus and of course a painkiller. I also have to clean the rash regularly with refrigerated Sodium Chloride.

I can't turn my head the the left at the moment, nor can I make any sudden movements. It's like one wrong turn and I'll rip my skin open. Sorry for the graphic description (not really), but yeah. I knew that part of my neck was rather red, but I thought it was just my eczema acting up. I decided to go to the doctor after it was swollen. 

On the other hand, there's a scar on my left cheek due to a Charley bite. Basically an insect crawled up my face while I was sleeping and secreted some kind of liquid that causes this. Luckily, it isn't that bad, and my face isn't swollen like the previous victim in my hostel. It's disappearing little by little. 

I guess that's it. I just need to be patient with the healing process and be careful with my neck. I can't even sleep on my right side without feeling like stretching the skin open. Oh well, at least I'm still getting sleep.It's a little painful, but it's not deadly. It'll get better, I hope.

I'm sorry I don't have better things to update about. p/s: this is my 100th post. That just makes it more pathetic. heh.

Ciao, Assalamualaikum.

Monday, August 6, 2012

Death, uncertainty and an infinite chase.

Dead fish
Dead bird
Dead plants
A pair of chopsticks
A hungry man
To sustain life
We eat death
So much death living in the blood
Giving life to flesh skin and bones
That it would be impolite
Not to answer death’s call
When it comes

heard in Talentime by Yasmin Ahmad


What is this? 
What am I doing?

Is this a new chapter
or is it just repeated history?
somehow things are too familiar
everything is the same
except for the different face
am I accepting the truth,
or am I believing a lie?
I don't know what I know
maybe I know nothing anymore
Am I that insane
to break all the promises
I made to myself once ago?
So naive and hopeless even more so
it's making me so blind
but it's showing me so much
that I have long lost sighted of
too curious and not too careful
maybe I do know
maybe I do understand 
but I'm too hardheaded
Maybe I'm fooled
by fairy tales 
and love songs

What is this?
do you have the answer?
If the answer is not what I want
Then consider me deaf
but then
I don't even know what I want.

An infinite chase

why does the moon keep chasing the sun?
it is rather foolish and pointless
to go after something unreachable
resulting in a never ending chase
but the moon's desire still burns
and it keeps going on
steadfast and loyal and true
hopeful for something impossible
maybe it won't end happily
but at least it's infinite.