Tuesday, December 29, 2015

The Blizzard

I know why people leave, and I don’t blame them.
If I were in their shoes, I wouldn’t stay either.

Who in the right mind would stay in a blizzard when they can go elsewhere – somewhere with brighter, better weather? It bewilders me that you’re still here. You must be out of your bloody mind.

I’m sorry. There’s no warning, no shelter. I can’t forecast when I will become a blizzard, although I know people who at least try to stay deserve nothing less than rainbows and sunshine.
Although I know, you deserve the best, nothing less.

In my attempts to save myself, I tend to latch onto things, people, and pull them into the storm. How selfish am I, to drag people down with me? 
That’s why people leave - to save themselves. It’s their survival instinct. It’s human.

In the midst of it all, I realise that sometimes, what we desire, isn’t what we deserve.

Do I deserve you?

29/12/2015 2:25am

Written for someone who I hope has the strength to stay.

p.s My final exams start tomorrow, and I feel so unprepared. Please pray for me. Thank you.


Like how a sunrise makes the darkness disappear, my sunrise will soon come.
'Till then, I'll face the darkness, counting the stars I find,

27/12/2015 8:44pm

Thursday, September 3, 2015

Shoes!: Ballerina Flats

Assalamualaikum w.b.t :)

Hey, what's up everyone? This post is gonna be about... shoes! but not just any shoes, ballerina flats :)  (as if ya'll can't read the title)

Heels and wedges can make you feel fierce and confident, but if you're anything like me, who tends to lose balance, wearing heels can be tricky. Even if you're a pro at wearing heels, wearing them can get painful sometimes. Give those ankles some rest! 

Women who aim for a simple yet sweet appearance will definitely fall in love with the comfortable ballerina flats. I'd say every girl must have at least one pair of ballerina flats in their wardrobe. Ballerina flats are designed for comfort and have that sweet element for women to show off their style. For students like me, ballerina flats are usually the go-to pair of shoes, perfect to bring us along the road to success (cewah!). 

For the ladies who want to pull of ballerina flats and look stunning, try out these styles!

1. The Girl-Next-Door
The ballerina shoes are known for its adorable design and is perfect for women to show off their innocent side in them. By matching the ballerina flats with a nice skirt or dress, you'll have a sweet feminine look! Wear them with your favourite Baju Kurung, and boom, Gadis Ayu alert! Carry the image of the young girl next door innocence and step out looking nice from head to toe. 

2. Casual Chic

Babes, don't ever think ballerina flats are for the boring. Swap those sandals and flip flops for something more stylish on your casual day out. They can be the fine line between "Meh" and "yasss" lol. Personally, i think they give you that nice "I don't need to try that hard to look good" look. Pair your casual attires with the cute ballerina shoes and step out the world like you're ready to turn heads. Because, girl, you are. There's a wide range of ballerina flats available, so have fun choosing one that suits your personal style. Whether a plain deign or fun trendy printed ones, walk out and look trendy even on your lazy days.

3. Workaholic

Who run the world? Girls. (I bet you read that in Beyonce's voice hahaha). For all the independent working women (there's a Destiny's Child reference in there somewhere), I know high heels give you that magical confidence boost, but it can also give you some strain if worn for long hours. You can still do your job and look good doing it with a pair of comfortable ballerina shoes. Ballerina shoes are super comfy and are suitable to be worn with your formal wears. Pick out a few pairs of versatile colours such as black, brown or beige to match perfectly with any outfits you have. Here's a tip: If you usually wear heels to work, keep a pair of ballerina flats in your office. You know, for emergencies. 

These are just style suggestions. If you find a style that suits your own, then work it! 
Have fun, ladies :D

Wednesday, September 2, 2015

What I did during the holidays besides being a sloth

Assalamualaikum w.b.t
I hope life has been treating you well.

This blog is legit semi-abandoned smh. But today I thought, why not post something. So here I am.

Tomorrow's my last day at home. I'll be leaving for Shah Alam on the day after. "Why?" you might ask (this is the point where I pretend that my life is interesting and people would actually be curious about such things lel). I'll be going to UiTM Shah Alam for my degree! Alhamdulillah I got accepted into LW224 - Bachelor of Law (Hons.) which is the programme I've been aiming for even before I even got my SPM results :)

So here I am, on my 2nd last day at home on this long holiday, blogging while listening to music, and I haven't even finished packing. Later lah hahahha.

I probably spent half of the holidays sleeping. But it ain't all unproductive. In my last post I wrote about my experience during UiTM's Vice Chancellor's Cup Debate Tournament which was held during the earlier days of the holiday. You can read my previous post if you want to know more... i mean, if you want.. or whatever. hahaha.

Back in June I spent  9 days at Pulau Redang, which was awesome! I was helping Dr Juanita from UMT with an awareness program in Laguna Redang but before that I spent a two nights at the Turtle Sanctuary in Chagar Hutang, Pulau Redang. It was nice to finally be on an island again after so long! There's no internet nor telephone service there, but it was nice to get away from those. I spend a lot of time on my phone to be honest, and not enough time being outside with nature.

At Chagar Hutang I got to sleep on the sandy beach, beneath a sky full of starts. It was the prettiest night sky I have ever seen. I have never seen so many stars before. There's no light pollution there, hence the mesmerizing view. In fact, even at night, we turn off the lights, and even the use of flashlights are not allowed because it will scare away the turtles. Turtles are very sensitive towards light. awww.

Other than that, I got to see turtles lay their eggs (finally, I mean, I've been living in Terengganu since I was 2 weeks old, and "kita tengok penyu bertelur" is mentioned in the song "Ganu Kita" but how many people have actually seen a turtle lay eggs, right in front of their own eyes, right?)

During the day I had plenty of time to go snorkeling. It as fun. I even caught a glimpse of a black-tip shark!(they were waiting to eat the baby turtles :( oh well, that's nature for ya) It's such a shame that I live in Terengganu, home of beautiful islands, but I have only been to two of them - Pulau Bidong and Pulau Redang. I want to go to ALL DA ISLANDZ. InsyaAllah...

Universiti Malaysia Terengganu's Sea Turtle Research Unit (SEATRU) offers a volunteer programme  in which the volunteers stay in Chagar Hutang for a week and basically help the sea turtles lay their eggs (which pretty much makes you a hero). For more information about the volunteer programme go to http://seatru.umt.edu.my :)

So after spending 2 nights at Chagar Hutang I spent the remainder of the 9 days in Laguna Redang Beach Resort which is located on a different beach on the island. SEATRU held an awareness campaign in conjunction with World Oceans Day which falls on the 8th of June. We had a booth at the hotel lobby, with posters and stuff. We sold merchandise to raise money. We even had painting activities which was a big hit with the little kids. The main attraction would be the turtle hatchlings release we did on the beach. I had a lot of fun in Pulau Redang :) the other volunteers were so friendly and we had no trouble getting along and working together. I learned a lot about sea turtles too.

According to research, it is estimated that in every 1000 turtle hatchlings, only 1 turtle will reach maturity. This is due to natural predators, and other threats such as pollution, getting tangled in fishing nets, etc. Besides that, the harvest of turtle eggs for consumption is also among the causes for the decline in population of turtles. Human activities threaten the turtles more than natural predators :( So far, It is illegal to commercially sell turtle eggs in Sabah and Sarawak, but not in Peninsular Malaysia (unfortunately). So friends, please help the turtles. Even if you can't participate in the volunteer programme, you can still do your part to help them. How? by not polluting the ocean, not buying/eating turtle eggs, and by spreading the word!

So that's all about Pulau Redang. Other than that, nothing too exciting happened. Hari Raya was hari raya, but this year I got to spend time with my friends in Johor Bharu, so that was a nice change. My family also visited the Crocodile Park in Pasir Gudang. At home, I learned to cook a few meals. Horayyy for learning how to be domestic lol.

Oh, and I also found love ;)

So I guess that's it. Didn't expect the post to turn out this long hahahaha. If you read this until the end then congratulations, go get yourself ice cream and pretend that I paid for it haha. I think it's obvious that I don't blog as much as I used to, but oh well.

Please pray for my success in my studies. Thank You :)

Friday, May 1, 2015

VC Cup UiTM 2015

Assalamualaikum, hey everybadeh!

This post, as stated in the title, is about UiTM's Vice Chancellor's Cup Debate Tournament 2015 (is that what it's called in English lol the Malay version is Pertandingan Debat Naib Canselor 2015). This is the second debate tournament I entered in university. It was hosted by UiTM Dungun, and was held on the 24th to the 27th of April 2015.

Presenting to you, my team, *epic drum roll*, The Black Panthers!

From left: Me, Muhaimin and Syazwani. This picture isn't exactly epic, I know. 
If you read my past blog post about IKBP, you'd recognise Muhaimin who was my partner in that tournament. We were the Black Vipers then. This time, Syazwani was with us, and the three of us became the Black Panthers.

Another team representing UiTM Kuantan was the White Tigers, comprising of Edayu, Ainin and Jue. For debate, UiTM Pahang sent 4 teams. 2 from UiTM Kuantan (The Black Panthers & The White Tigers) and 2 from UiTM Jengka (Slim Shady & Morbidly Obese Shady - you get the joke?). For debat, we sent 4 teams under the name of UiTM Pahang. One team as a combination of Jengka and Kuantan due to a shortage of debaters lol, but it's all good. After all, we are all under UiTM Pahang anyways.

The Jengka troupe came to the Kuantan (Padang Lalang) Campus when we had our training. At first it was intimidating to see them, especially because they're older than us (although just by a few years), but after training together, and hanging out with each other, we became a family. I guess that tends to happen when you combine a cool bunch of people with another cool bunch of people hahaha.

The cool kids. The UiTM Pahang contingent. <3

For your information, we trained intensively (by intensively I mean 4 to 6 motions a day. I don't know if that's considered intensive to you, but it was for me) from the 21st to the 23rd of April, which means the Asasi kids had a week of break at home then came back to campus. Since Asasi ended before VC Cup started, the VC Cup became our grand finale. And grand, it was. (Why did I start speaking like Yoda all of a sudden?)

Long story short, the Black Panthers won.

Personally, I didn't even imagine reaching finals, let alone win. I don't think I had a specific target in mind. The target was to go as far as we could, and initially, "as far as we could" was probably quarters in my head, but that changed over time. Each session, I kept thinking "hey, we have a chance here". My plan was to try my best, and hope for the best lah.

I started to feel burned out at quarter-finals, but the debate sessions kept coming, and there was simply no time to think of fatigue. Basically there was no time to be a whiny baby lol. Right after finals ended, even before the closing ceremony, I was so sleepy. After debate finals, we had debat finals, then the closing ceremony. I barely made through through the debat finals awake. In the car ride home, the tiredness got to me. I was hella exhausted. At home, I spent most of 3 days paying my sleep dept. Hooray for being able to sleep at home!

For the finals, we went against The Kedahshians (pun intended) of UiTM Kedah. We ere the government, and they were the opposition. The motion was "This house believes that FAM should only sell broadcasting rights of Malaysian football to broadcasters with a dedicated sports channel". Football and broadcasting? Talk about a major plot twist! Clever move from the organizers, though.

wah so stage much finals

In all honesty, we didn't manage to tackle the motion as good as we would've wanted to (it bothers me inside). I think our performance in the past sessions were better, but nevertheless, we still gave it our all. This is what I love about my team. We never settled for anything less than our best, even during training sessions. I would like to thank Muhaimin for this. His determination was infectious. One of the best things about winning was seeing his smile. Seeing that smile, something inside me whispered "It was worth it." eceh sweet dok? hahaha

Relieved panthers bcs finals was over!
Thanks Muhaimin for being the engine of this team. Your perseverance level is so high, I don't even know how you do it!

Thanks Syazwani for your never-ending willingness to learn. If I were in your shoes, things would have probably gone messier. But you never crumbled. Not bad for your first big tournament, aye?

It was a team effort, and we make a good team. It's sad to think that unless all three of us further our studies in UiTM Shah Alam (and continue debating), this tournament is most probably the first and the last for the Black Panthers. :(

The Kuantan kids... uhm... training intensively. 

Throughout the whole tournament, we went against very skilled debaters, and I made new friends. Thanks to the debaters who shared tips, and of course, the adjudicators who gave us constructive criticism.

I hope I get to meet ya'll again someday, but until then, let's keep in touch.

I would also like to thank those who supported and congratulated us. Ya'll are too nice. <3

Last but not least, thanks UiTM Dungun for being a great host! I am very jealous of the fact that your campus is directly in front of the beach.

I'll cherish the memories, For these memories are much more valuable than the piala pusingan lol

I don't blog as much as I used to, so I'll see you when I see you!

Thursday, April 30, 2015

Surat cinta sempena pengakhiran asasi.

Alhamdulillah, selesai sudah perjuangan sebagai pelajar asasi. 

Kepada pensyarah-pensyarah ku, terima kasih atas segala tunjuk ajar yang diberikan, semoga ilmu yang disampaikan akan terus menjadi sedekah jariah yang tidak putus memberikan kalian pahala. Maaf juga dipinta seandainya aku telah mengguriskan hati kalian, atau aku tidak berjaya mencapai jangkaan kalian. 

Kepada rakan-rakan, terima kasih kerana sudi menerima kehadiran diriku dalam kehidupan kalian. Terima kasih kerana memberikan aku peluang untuk merasa kemanisan persahabatan yang sedikit sebanyak melarutkan kepahitan perjuangan. Andai sepanjang perkenalan kita terdapat perkara-perkara yang mengguris hati, aku memohon seribu keampunan. Aku doakan kalian  berjaya di dunia dan di akhirat. 

Semoga takdir menemukan kita kembali. Semoga Allah SWT memberkati kita semua. InsyaAllah.
Yang ikhlas, Sofia Aizura